Music Mondays

Today I write with a heavy heart. The past weeks haven't been easy and I'm tired of the fight. But you know, it's ok not be ok. It's ok to cry and feel the pain. It's perfectly fine to feel like everything's not in my control, because truthfully it never even was. Right now I'm only focusing on today and that's ok too. Sometimes we go through seasons where we're just leaping over every obstacle and nothing seems to be able to oppose us, but there are the times when all we can do is to stand, and stand firm. In those seasons it's important to let go of all extra pressure, listen to your heart and find the time to be still and process. Not being afraid of just standing and letting go of the stress of always having to move forward.
It's ok not to be ok.

xxx

In It's Right Time

This week I read this quote by someone (apparently) unknown: 

"Direction is so much more important than speed. Many are going nowhere fast." 

I've seen this quote before, but this time I had to actually stop and really think about it. I've been pursuing my dreams for a while now and one thing I've learned is that it looks a lot different from what I imagined it to be. I've come to understand that as important (or maybe even more) as actually reaching that dream is the journey. Achieving those dreams will only stand as milestones on my lifespan and the whole in-betweens are going to be filled with the process of getting there. Those process is what shapes me, teaches me and makes me who I am. Until I understood that principle, I was only living in the future and completely missing out on the present. Getting to my dreams ASAP could not stay as a core value. It was only depriving me from the riches only lived life could offer, no matter how much society tried to make it seem like the best way to follow.

I've also had to re-evaluate my directions multiple times along the way. The peace of knowing that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be at the moment, creates an atmosphere where everything else can flow freely from. It doesn't matter what my life looks like on the outside and caring about other peoples opinions is just a waste of time, because they are not the ones' walking in my shoes. I've often had to make choices that have seemed irrational to people around me, but my peace has told me otherwise and through trial and error I've learned to trust it's voice.

Of course it's great to achieve dreams and goals quickly, but we shouldn't make that the priority. Working hard, being dedicated and focused, understanding your own journey and following your peace will take us there, in it's right time.



xxx

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Music Mondays

I believe love is more than just an emotion, some passing feeling that comes and goes as it pleases. It is more than a word, easily dropped at any given moment. I believe love is the reason for our existence. The more I come to understand about this life, the more I am convinced that we have been created for love, to be loved, to love. I've seen it heal the incurable, pierce through the unbreakable and dissolve the greatest darkness. I believe the greatest quest for a person is to learn how to love, how to be loved and to search out what love is, in it's deepest and most powerful form. I've been hurt, beaten down, abandoned and rejected. I've felt the absence of love and the bitter pain it brings, but through it all, through every circumstance I have faced, love has never failed. 

Tina Dico's Someone You Love is what brings all of these thoughts to my mind. For me the thing that sets apart a great song from good ones is when I feel the music instead of just hearing it. Those are the songs that I'll come back to over and over, because it almost feels like it's lyrics and melodies just keep on giving and opening up by every play. And this, my dear reader, is one of the greats.

xxx

Ps. Kiitti Nepu ♡